Its been a strange month for me, I think its been coming a few months now a month like this where I really cant play and put the hands in.
Last month was a lazy month for me but i still managed to put 50k hands in, this month not even past 10k (ill post what I have end of the month, its basically break even)
I was well known for my grind ability, 150 000 hands a month easy, and i really want to bring that back, i used to grind like a mad man to get all the things I have now which brings me onto my next point
My life is pretty damn good atm, I have a lot of freedom, lots of nice things, a bunch of cool friends, a great family, money to spend on what i want (£2500 on a birthday night lol) ive started seeing a really nice girl as well so i actually cant complain about anything, god knows why i ever do!
I worked really hard at this, and ive gone through a lot of mentall stress, the game is really bad for you in some respects, the highs and lows can drive you crazy, but im realistic, people work harder than me in everyday jobs, bringing up kids etc.. im just saying relative to me this is what i worked at and now i need to take it to a new level.
I did say i want to make 500k this year and I still believe i can, ive been a bit all over the place this month but ive been reflecting a lot and i truly believe I have my motivation back for a big long grind next month.
I say a lot of things, and plan a lot of things I never do, and I also change my mind all the time about what i want to do lol, thats why vegas is on/off all the time.
Ive decided its not best for me now, I need to concentrate on earning more and more $$, and the best way for me to do that is what i know, grinding super hardcore.
I can write this month off, last month was decent(+$15k) but i want a big month in march then in april I can re evaluate again, no point planning months in advance becuase its impossible with poker to do much planning.
So my latest plan (lol) is to rake race/grind super hardcore in march, meaning about 200 000 hands, a personal record for me.
If I dont do it then im a failure to myself and my blog!
I had daily updates in Jan and i plan to do the same in March.
There is a thread here on 2+2, that some of you may have seen, this is the last time i grinded mega superduper and i made around $50 000 overall (bonuses/rake race included) at 1/2 and 2/4. It was August last year, so only a few months back and I did a similar thing in November where i made around $35k overall. I just need to remind myself of these big months!
http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/54/poker-beats-brags-variance/brag-beat-my-place-my-setup-many-pics-inside-273576/
Ill post again in march :)
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